Sitting here..

Sitting here all alone in my room, here in hall..slowly munching away on e spring roll i bought at jurong pt.....



Ah yes..i went to JP for no apparent reason once more...zzzz...while i was at it..my ez-link oso no money..was like "DIAOZ~!" x 1000...yeah...(shucks spring roll finish liaoz...) I also realised i went JP to walk only half a round of lvl B1..then i came back liao..WA LAO EH~! wat am i doing man?



Why is it that i see images of her in almost every girl i see?Yes...quite scary..juz today i saw a girl in lecture..and i almost thought it was her..like zzzzzzzzz...i am getting quite obssessed man..oh wellz..i juz went to haf a chat w ah hock while he was having dinner..i was mentioning..perhaps it's time to juz change my lifestyle..immerse myself in waterpolo..and my room..For this 4 yrs here..my life will be: waterpolo and my room..u dun see me at swimming pool means i am in my room..waterpolo, my room, waterpolo, my room, waterpolo, my room..watever..any one wan come visit me..ok lor..dun wan visit me..SO BE IT...i oso dun care..



Wow...tt sounds quite fierce..but i really was very excited abt it...sighz...



"No one lives for you except yourself.." perhaps i have taken the feelings and thoughts of others into consideration for FAR~ too long alrdy..perhaps it's time to live for myself..only for myself.."When e whole world is standing against you, you get back and stand up, ONE against e world!" Life is yours to live..choices are yours to make..take flight, or take the plunge..tt's also pretty much your own to decide..



But having said that, i still wanna continue fighting on..continue pressing on for wat i really believe in..however..as it is..it is one sided + she doesnt like me + everything seems to be against me..really makes one cui..but "I may have lost the battle, but I have not lost the war.." I shall continue to pick myself up..continue to remain positive in the light of all negativity around me..I may be the lone warrior in this battlefield..one against e world..but i shall stand tall, stand proud..e wounds are but a passing phase of yesterday's fight...painful as they may be..but it's thru these pain that i draw my strength..to noe tt i am living..to be proud that i am fighting for wat i perceive to be a worthy cause..no one may see me this way..but as long as i continue to fight..nothing in this world can stop me..



Should the final blow be struck onto me...it will only be because, i have no strength left..wounds aren't recovering fast enough..And as i draw my final breath, i will ensure that, w unwavering faith and solid hope, that all's well on ur side..And as i draw my final breath, i will ensure that i have alrdy done my best, it's time for me to rest..



As of now, the final blow is still very far..i noe i can continue on for quite a long long time..no help..nvm..no allies..nvm..rain or shine..i will continue..high or low..i will climb..back and forth..i will go..There and Back Again..my journey continues..



Till at last..in the blinding light, I will stand at e beginning of e end..At the end of what?I dunno..but as i stand there w weary feet, weak limbs, scarred body, bloodshot eyes..i will only noe wat kind of end it is..when the light dims itself...



Be it good or bad..watever the outcome..I juz wan her to noe tt..whether she sees me this way or not...



I am there for her..
Always have been..
Always will be...