Another Day

Today was my programming paper..juz within seconds after the examiner said,"u may start" i got stuck alrdy...ironically..the very first question was on a topic which i read when i first started my revision...DARN~! and there i was, forgot everything...shucks..



Anyway..my main topic for today isnt really abt e paper..it's done...yes...like wat she said.."it's done.." Quite saddening to think abt it....how we arent talking anymore..she appears, she says, "hi"..(sometimes not even addressed to me)..then disappears..sheesh..i am but an invisible man to her now..i understand that wat i haf done thus far has been very detrimental to e r/s btn us..but still..at least i am trying to salvage sth..



In the few wks tt she has so solemnly bo chap-ed me..i guess it was time to turn e table..i dunno...maybe it's juz me..seeing tt she treats me like this..so i guess i had to turn e table..now even myself oso dun wanna talk to her..(though deep inside really wanna chat w her)..but then again..she always say we can be frens bla bla bla..and yet every action, wrong..there is no action at all from her, depicting that of her trying to maintain our frenship..i've tried..even if not for a long-term bgr, but still for a long term good frens thing..but still..it's juz like tt..It was only juz now..that we had out so-called blk rep phototaking..(yeah..at quite a late time considering we haf been in this post for like almost 3mths?)..yeah..then i see her really quite happy..in a sense..she is like joking ard here and there...(no not w me of cos...tt day will probably nv come from now on anyway)...ya..then i juz decided to take my leave anyway..cos i din wanna spoil her mood by hanging ard..wat better situation than juz haf one person sad rather than two?and yup..i think i made an antisocial movement by juz leaving w/o even saying 'bye' to e rest...sighz...but nvm...i am quite antisocial anyway..



So like tt lor..it's juz saddening to noe that..two person who used to chat so much..share so much..suddenly juz switch off..nvm if it was for a romantic r/s or juz a frenly r/s..e fact of e matter is..things can juz disappear..which was wat i told hm yesterday anyway..(went to see cousy touchdown, of which i told her and she mentioned sth abt being sad tt pple leave for other country and dunno when can see em again).."people come and go..tt's life.." yeah..tt's wat i said..so it's probably e same thing w regards to this matter..this matter which has been my life for e past 3mths..(has it been tt long?)..



Yupz..so now...w e knowledge that she wont be here in NTU next sem onwards..it juz strengthens my decision to let go..maybe juz take a break..but letting go, though a very strong term, will sound better..It's ok la..she wants it this way..so be it...I've tried...failed..tried again..so many times..i guess..she juz wans to leave me at a position WAY~~~~ outside her circle of frens..some frens huh?



So be it...it's juz another day..of my godforsaken life..it's juz another day..and as wat KY will say..."Life still goes on..no one will wait for u.."